I go through phases where I'm feeling introspective and want to share and other times where I want to just keep every thought close to my heart and not expose myself to outside scrutiny.
Today's one of those days where I want to share. I've had a lot of friends and strangers comment that they don't have any idea what it's like to live my life. Well, it's another world. My world is almost cinematic in its definition and the characters I've come to know and observe.
I live in a world where I sit in a doctor's office and overhear a beautiful teenage girl with remnants of hair casually talk about her Make a Wish trip with her mother. It's a world where I sat in a hospital room with Bea and several other children talking about their accomplishments of the week and what they want to do the next week. These accomplishments included things that we take for granted - standing up, eating a meal, talking. It's a place where a blind child is verbally directed by her mother to a box of toys. It's a world where my daughter fits right in. And, funny enough, she'd fit right in even if she didn't have cancer.
It would all seem to sad if it weren't. See, I so rarely see any of these children crying or upset. They're living, laughing and enjoying life. THey're just kids and that's why Bea would fit in with them cancer or not. She's not moved by these other children's illness or physical limitations. They're just another kid to play with or talk to.
They're just kids but they are so much more than that. They are the lesson we all need to live... that life is pretty great even when the worst possible things happen.